|
| once upon a time i met an amazingg kid who pretty much won my heart; this boy was just amazing and no matter what he was there i could be crying my eyes out or hyper as hell but hed be right by my side.. i know what your thinking who cares right? well you have no clue how much that meant to me<3 yeah he could always put a smile on my face. he did make my heart skip a beat as well. this boy was just my everything. i know what they say dont make anyone your everything cuz when there gone you dont have anything. when i heard that i was just like BS but you know what..its true me and him havnt been together since march 4th 2006 and you have no idea how much he hurt me. he explained to me how great this girl was that he was with and kept going on. i didnt wanna lose his friendship so i just smiled and said thats cool im happy for you..but deep down i thought i was going to piss my heart out..&& so he knew we had a friendship so when emily broke up with him he called me <crying> and you know what i was there for him because he had been there for me throughe verything. now me and him are talken again and i have that feeling back. i just want him to know that he means a lot to me and anymore i dont know where i would be without him because through these past few motnhs that we havnt been close he was still there through everything hes just flat out amazing..i love him i just wnat you to know that your amazing jason xox | | |
| k guys im going back to using...www.xanga.com/partygal698979 ha yea i know...LOSER | | |
| that keeps me at the edge of my seat...seriously i miss you okay i dont wanna give in and let you know my weakness (why not tho u know everything else) ha..but seriosly ever since that night everything has been different...i dont know like i used to get up in the morning and get all ready and just wait for you to text me and now i dont get up til like 15 mins before the bus even comes...weather u believe it or not you got me outta be and pulled me through the day...and now that ur gone its just like BLAH! i mean i know your still in my life and all its just so different from the way it was and i dont know...it just sucks..! i know that i shouldnt still care czu well no matter how much i do LOVE you your still 600 and some miles away...and there are going to be other girls in your life and guys in myne..but i never knew it would be so hard to get over you..i can honestly say that i did love you...LOVE....well i dont kno wwhy im saying DID cuz well honestly i still do and theres a part of me that wishes that we were back to the way we used to be but then again i dont cuz when u find a new girl i dont wanna go through that pain again..and yea i know that if i found someone b4 you did it wouldnt be so hard on you...but i have never had someone in my life that means as much to me as you do...and its just hard to lose you..ive done it twice now and i dont know...wow i still have the same feelings for you as i did before...i can sit here and tell you im completly over you and stuff but truth be told..im not..im not over you and i dont think i will be..and you have no idea how hard it is to be "just friends" or the -->Gatta go BYE<-- thing...i miss the ilys and stuff i do....and i hate my life without you in it..like you were...HONESTLY jason i love you..i do..HONESTly wiht my whole entire heart and i really dont think you will find someont that will love you better...<33 you will always be my world weather you wanna be or not....I Love You...=[...and it hurts bad!
| | |
| So yea im glad i have some pretty amazing friends to help me through when i need it most...
Last night was fucken awesome..haha me and tim and kep went to brittanys and hung with her...and after a while tim got her wet (not literly) he dumped water on her ha! and then mike (her stepdad) came in and kristins like "dont be doing that i dont wanna go home wet" haha! so then mike left haha yea i would to..and tim popped that thing in my wrist (pressure point) or something so i kept hitten his "sore" shoulder (that he whined about all night like a lil pussy) haha! yea then he through a dime at me and it miracuasly hit my eye! ha...and brittanys boob ended up in my mouth (she had a hoody on so it wasnt bare boob) ha! and now i have this gay pic on my fone of me and time...extremly stupid looking lemme tell you! ha
Well im going to go cuz tim and kep are coming over and britts going to at 8 when she gets home!
oh yea...tomorrows surgury!
<33 Lacyy | | |
| I knew that i cared a lot about you; i mean i thought about you all the time; and told you i loved you AND MEANT IT!...yea i thought you did to... i mean comone just the first this is what he said...and i quote 8268:" and baby your the only one i want and i dont want anyone else to have you..i just worry, cuz im scared; im scared of losing you to someone..i just have never felt this way about neone before and i wanna keep that... i just love you so freaken much baby" yea i just dont understand y he would say then knowing that he liked her..which i mean i respect her cuz she isnt a whore but i dont know it just hurts to know that hes outta my life now...its like one second hes there and the next hes not...maybe its just me but i kinda miss him....Then again i do wanna get over him becuase im sick of being attached...lets just say i really was in love and i mean i still love the kid... and theres a part of me that always will...hes just showed me so much about how a guy should act... makes all the other guys seem like losers; i dedicate this quote to him " if you play with fire your gonna wind up burnt" yea i guess he was my fire huh....
maybe i really was the only one that meant it when i said i love you....
but its okay i just realized that love is a mistake.....
ill always love him
Gawd i hate this....... but i guess life goes on | | |
|
|
